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With that being said, there is something I’ve been wrestling with recently. Why in the world does God act and move in the ways He does? Why does pain occur? Why is heartbreak allowed? Why in the world am I here? What’s the point?
Why does God act in the ways that He does?
Okay. So I’ve been wrestling with a lot of things, but the more I’ve wrestled with this, the more those “Christian Clichés” that have been spoken honestly aren’t helping.
The words: “Just have faith and it’ll all work out” or “Someday God’ll use your circumstances to one day help others” or “Just pray about it” ain’t cutting it. Honestly, in the moments of struggle, these words weren’t helping ease the pain in my struggle, but ticking me off. Literally. I was as mad as a wet red hen.
Now don’t get me wrong, all of those things are necessities, crucial steps for us to take/do, and wisdom knows these things are true BUT when that man breaks your heart or the job that you thought was going to be it for you doesn’t work out for you, when that promotion is given to another, when the child doesn’t make it into a prestigious school, etc. those things don’t seem to appease the apparent rejection in your wake.
I’ve been wondering why I haven’t been able to see God show up in big ways recently. I’ve been wondering how people around my age like Joel Nobis and Sadie Robertson can see God so clearly seemingly like all of the time. I honestly feel like I’m flying by the seat of my pants at this moment in time.
The last thing I’ve been wondering is why can’t I see some miracle like seeing a burning bush in 2019. (Wouldn’t that be amazing?) And most importantly, wouldn’t it dissipate some of the arguments skeptics are making?
I struggle with the character of who God is. There I said it. I want the predictability of a normal life all the while trusting in the God that is above all. I want the predictability of a normal life, yet I know I’m not called to normal. Let’s face it: I want predictability from an unpredictable God. I wonder where the heck is He when my circumstances are waning on the verge past out-of-control and into “Oh Holy Crap.” I panic when I feel like something is about to destroy all I’ve dreamed of.
And as I’ve been confronted head-on about my past while I’ve been home, it’s been hard for me to see the future ahead of me. It’s hard to have hope in the future ahead when I’m surrounded by all of the mistakes I made back then. Recently, it’s been brought to my attention certain characteristics of who I am—especially in high school— were perceived in a negative light, and well, false rumors were spread.
Let’s be real: I was a mess. But while I thought I was invisible enough to be avoided having rumors spread… it still happened.
I really don’t think I was overly liked in high school. I was perceived to be a flirt because of my personality; and because of my personality being so bubbly, I was also perceived as an airhead—whom many were actually worried about for when I went off to college. Ouch. Now, all of this I deep down kind of assumed, but when the reality of those assumptions hits you square in the face and turn out to be true, it hurts. Rumor upon rumor I’ve recently heard that were spread about me two/three/four years ago has just been resurfaced and come to my attention. To say that I’ve taken it all with a grain of salt, is well, a lie.
So where does God fit in the middle of all of this?
But that’s just the thing, isn’t it?
He isn’t in the middle of all of this, He’s above all of this.
The truth is this: God is a good, just God even if I don’t see it. He’s taken care of me in the past, and He’s got my future under control—even if I’m flying by the seat of my pants—and He most definitely is speaking life into the most innate parts of my soul.
And He will do the same for you.
If you can’t tell, it’s obvious that the state I was in before writing this post is one where I was focused on me AND the world around me. When I started writing this, I just started writing questions and journaled thoughts in here until I came to the realization that I haven’t really been focusing on Him as much as putting Him on trial. In all reality, it should be the other way around!
Let’s take this one step further and focus on God for a sec.
Here’s what we know:
- He’s Good
- He’s Faithful
- He’s Trustworthy
- His Ways Are Higher Than Ours
- He’s Never Early But He Is Always On Time
- He Will Provide, Guide, And Lead Us To Where We Need To Go
- He’s Gentle, Patient, Kind, And Near To Those Who Are Brokenhearted
These are truths lived out in my life and life speaking words written in the Bible.
We’ve seen them written, we know it to be true EVEN IF it seems like the whole world and He is against us, and we know He can be trusted. It’s our human nature to be skeptical, yet it’s our human nature in itself that makes us so desperate to find the truth.
We will dive into those questions I wrote above in the next few posts, but before we attack those questions I needed a perspective and heart check, and maybe you do too before this.
So why in the world does God act in the way He does?
I have no idea why He does what He does in certain situations. I do know, however, that He’s bigger than me. He’s bigger than this world, and He’s bigger than life. My mistakes don’t sway him. My past doesn’t intimidate Him. And my future? He’s got it all taken care of.
Romans 8:28 states, ” 28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose. ” (NIV)
When I remind my heart of those seven truths and this verse, God doesn’t seem so scary, the past isn’t so messy, and my future is filled with hope. It’s not about me, it’s all about Him. He’s God—a good, just God— at that. And He genuinely wants the best for you. Those are his motives for why He acts the way He does. And trust me, all that is good for you and glorifying to Him will come to pass. Just live in faith and walk by faith daily.
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