Breaking Down So He Can Break Through:

“She is clothed in strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future” (Proverbs 31:25). This by far is one of my favorite verses in scripture, yet there are some days in life that it is so hard to live out. There are some days where I can say that I’m like this, and yet more often than not, laughing without fear of the future is something I have to grit my teeth to do. 

What I love about this verse is that it reminds me of who I am and what I have in Christ. Because I am a daughter of the King, I am clothed in His strength and dignity. Because my God has everything under His command, I know I can laugh without fear of the future, but here’s the thing: sometimes I don’t laugh. There are days when I become so anxious about what is happening, or in my mind what should be happening, that I forget that I don’t need to worry. There are days where my vision is so shortsighted and I only see the problem that I am blind to the bigger picture of what is really going on. These are the days that I don’t laugh.

On these days, the focus is not on God but rather on my upcoming math test that if I fail, I’m going to fail the course and flunk out and live in a box.

On these days, the focus is not on God but rather on how I am going to perform on the field, and if I don’t do well coach is going to bench me, and there goes my shot at being a starter.

(Side Note: But this is my literal thought process sometimes, I’m not exaggerating.)

On these days, I am tense, nervous, and anxious; and most definitely not laughing without fear. You want to know something though? It’s typically those days where God is the most evidently working in my life because sometimes I need to break down, so He can break through.

This past semester, I was taking college algebra. Now, I am not a math person by any means, and it was awful. My first test I ended up making a D. After talking to my professor, we realized the answer key was wrong on one question, so I made a low C. Which this is not bad, but most definitely not what I wanted to get. And I was panicking.  In order to do my best in the course, I had to swallow my pride and ask my coach for a tutor. Over the course of time, I figured out how to do decent on the tests, but with the final looming in the horizon I was terrified.

That’s when God entered into the equation. (Pun most definitely intended.) I had heard from past teachings, that you can trust God with anything and everything no matter how small, and because I was trusting Him with all of the big situations in life I figured I could trust him with my math final. Now, that all of that finals week, I was preparing and studying my tail off. The night before, I couldn’t sleep, and I was studying until 1 am. But through all of that, I was praying and trusting God; when it came time to take the final I prayed over that too. And you know what? He came through and blessed me with more than I ever imagined.  He came through and gave me a peace that surpassed all understanding. He gave me a clear mind that enabled me to take the exam and remember all of my studies. Because I left it in His hands and I had such an overwhelming sense of peace, I knew that a miracle was fixing to take place. To be frank, I honestly was shooting for a B. For me, getting a B in a college math course would have been a miracle itself, but God actually came through and blessed me with an A, and a 4.0 GPA my first semester of college.

If that is not a blessing, I do not know what is. And honestly, in that case that was definitely a scenario where my faith had to hit the grindstone (This was a moment where I was being tested to see if I was going to practice what I preach, so to speak.)  When the final grades came out, I could not believe it. I legit was crying and rejoicing because my God came through, and I knew there was no way I could have done that on my own accord. And honestly had I not have done so poorly on that first test, I probably would not have been able to tell you this story today.

See here is the thing that I sometimes miss and I feel we all tend to miss: God loves his people so passionately, and He wants to provide for us in all things. Whether that be a relationship, a class, a job opportunity, etc.; however, He is not going  to force us to go in the direction He wants us to go. He wants us to invite Him in and allow Him to completely take the reins. That complete submission, the overwhelming peace that surpasses all understanding, and the rejoicing and celebration all comes when we completely give God control over situations. Then and only then can we laugh without fear of the future, for we know that the God that loves us so passionately, who created the heavens and the earth, as well as each individual on this planet, right down to every blade of grass, has it all under His control. And nothing is stronger or more powerful than our God.

My point is: In order for us to live without fear of the future, we need to completely give the future to God because then, and only then, will we be able to laugh without fear, be clothed in strength and dignity, and have a peace that surpasses all understanding. I am a mere college student living in Monticello, Arkansas, and yet my life and many others can testify that when the time comes for God to intervene in your situations, you will be so joyous and amazed and it will be perfect and beautiful and good. And that my friends, is amazing.

Thank you all for reading today, and I hope you all have a lovely week! God bless, and I love y’all!

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